Weekend After

After the first chemo treatment Mom seemed to do well the first two days. By the third day however thats when things got scarey. Food for her did not taste the same and started to make her sick. Hearing her on the phone and being far away made it really hard. By this time I had gone back to the city to move into my new apartment. I felt like i betrayed her in a way by leaving and honestly wanted to drop out of school right then and there and move back home. however as a Mother she said it would be selfish of her to let me stay and encouraged me to stay in school. I couldn't ask for a better mom with all she is going through she is a tough lady and has not cried once. (in front of me anyway) after a few days of her being sick she was right back on her feet and made it through. This was only the first treatment so there is now only 14 to go and counting....

The First Chemo Treatment

On September 27th Mom Was scheduled to first Chemo treatment. She thought I had to stay in the city to work, however I surprised her and came home that Wendsday night instead. The next day walking into the office was a real eye opener there were obviously cancer patients all around and watching all of them recieving their treatment had to be the most sadest and scariest thing I had ever seen. With all the emotion running through me I had felt that I was in a twilight zone and nothing seemed real. My mom was Asked prior to be part of a study group to help people from getting sick after the treatment and she would be given 50 dollars each time plus it was actually a good thing because since she is part of a study group they would be paying closer attention to her so that would benefit her in the long run. seeing them inject each medication one by one had to be the hardest part of it all. Afterward she decided to get what they call a port which is a device that they put inside right below the skin and they can inject medicine through it and take blood so that her hand wouldn't get all bruised up. anyone who knows a cancer patient please recomend the outlet it's easier on them and makes it quicker because they don't have to keep looking for the vein everytime they go in.

The Results

On that following Tuesday after the surgery we recieved the results for the lymph nodes and well, although the doctor didn't see anything that alarmed him the results came out that out of the 23 that were taken out 8 were infected. Another slap in the face. So now was the time to start getting ready for the chemo-therapy. The doctor also mentioned that since the lymph nodes were infected on top of the chemo they would deffinitly do radiation to make sure they could kill whatever they could and hopefully stop the spreading. The positive was that they did find it quickly enough to do a lot and take control of it. for a future reference for anyone going through this or who might go through it you always have to remember to take one day at a time and concentrate on the positives and not so much the negatives. It's very hard but after a few weeks of letting everything sink in you get used to the idea of whats happening but I always keep in my mind now especially, with the chemo treatment comming it will seem to get worse before it gets better but I have to remember it is going to help her along with the process.